So I had a good cry a little bit ago. I needed it. I was just so bummed about leaving my home and my bed and my family and my dog and Gloucester. Sure there's tons of stuff that drives me crazy, and sure I'm be back there in three days for a long weekend, and sure I've gone through this twice before, but I was still down. So I cried, and I feel better. I'm actually kind of looking forward to tomorrow. Still kinda bummed I had to miss Conan, but at least I can watch him on Hulu.

I brought so much less stuff this year. I still have a good amount of clothing I'd like to bring, plus my Black Ram painting to hang on my wall, but my room is nice and simple this year. It's pretty comfortable. I've already seen Kate, we went out grocery shopping with her (current) boyfriend Andy. I like Andy, I hope they don't end up in the drama well Kate always finds herself in with boyfriends.

I have Women's Studies and History of Photography tomorrow. Both sound interesting, but both are also liberal arts classes, which to me translates to drawing time. I'll probably post some sketches tomorrow, since tonight I am wiped from the moving and crying and I just wanna lie down and read some Sherlock Holmes.

Just got Ziggy back today! Mr. Stardust was in the shop for a little boost, I needed him to go faster. it was a birthday present from my parents <3 So now he's running like a beast. I love my computer!

Went shopping with mom and Meg on Wednesday. Got tons of great stuff, including the best-fitting pair of pants I've ever tried on. Also ordered my shark shirt from Delia*s. I got a ton of stuff from Wet Seal online tonight too, so my back to school wardrobe should be fab.

Thursday Meg and I got our hair done, I'm getting rid of my layers and going for the more Silk Spectre look. Then dad took us to grab the Lone Wolf, as it's been in the shop getting the air conditioning looked at (that should take another week to fix D: ). On the way we stopped by my dad's friend's house to look at a Volvo station wagon he's selling. 2001, "pewter," leather interior. I make fun of station wagons though, they look so stupid. And I love my Volvo! I don't know why they're so gung-ho about making me stop driving my car. It's stressing me out. I like my car. I don't care if it's 1995 and has almost 200,000 miles on it. It's never failed me in a serious way. Sure, my dad's Toyota is nice, but it's no Lone Wolf. I'm being so selfish and whining because I don't want the station wagon, even though it's more updated than my car. My parents are amazing and do so much for me, I can drive whatever they want me to drive. I just figured keepinh my oldass car would be less of a hassle. Mom's scared of me dying on the way to school, though. It's just bothering me.

Oh yeah, after all that Meg and I saw Ponyo. Holy shit! It's so adorable! Everyone should see it. It's so sweet and snuggly warm and it's Miyazaki just going "hey I love animating water, let's make a movie all about water." I want to watch the rest of his movies now :D Then we got cheesecake for ourselves and dad, since his birthday is tomorrow. Oh crap I have to make him a card and wrap his present!

That's the funniest picture I've ever seen. I love my Superman in the 60's book.

SO I FINISHED THAT THING. Holy cow, I'm so glad I got it done! I know it's not crazy awesome, but it works for what it is. Hopefully the BABY staff will like it :D

I watched some of my Watchmen DVD, and I have to say...the tiny bits that were left in for the director's cut make a HUGE difference. I liked the movie a lot when I saw it in the theater, but it's so much better on DVD. Just the tiny things, they make me happy.

I've been contemplating what camera to get. My old one crapped out (not that old, less than a year >:( ) so I've been searching for the perfect one. I am in no way a photography-savvy person, so I never know what to look for. I've been eying the Canon SX110, but I'm open to suggestions. People of the internet, I ask for your advice!

lmao wasn't this journal supposed to be for updating my art things? I guess I need to be doing art to update you people on it. So here's the lines for the Alice and the Pirates tribute I'm working on. I hope to have this done by tomorrow so I can work on something else.

Decided I'd like to whiten my teeth. Boy is this summer fun! Working on improving my features. I was looking through some old pictures of me and noticed that my teeth weren't very nice. I've shied away from whitening them because years ago I chipped my front teeth and needed to get them covered in some artificial substance to fix the chips, and I don't know how a whitening system will work on it. But I'll bite the bullet (lol no pun intended) and go for it.

Working out is exceedingly...painful. I hate it. But I'm not stopping. There is nothing on this earth I hate more than physical activity for the sake of being physically active. I like swimming, skating, and dancing because it's fun, not because I'm active. But sacrifices must be made, I guess.

Oh yeah! I bought the Watchmen DVD on Tuesday, and I got the super awesome Rorschach face version from Best Buy. It matches my Dark Knight DVD case of Batman's head. They can make out or something. I'm still debating whether or not to be Silk Spectre for Halloween. Oh yeah, have I mentioned that I'm horrifically jealous of everyone going to SDCC? Efffff you guys.

26 days until I'm two decades old.

Augh I never update. What is wrong with me? I haven't been drawing much this week, so I have nothing to share. D: I am lame.

I feel like a lifeless, flopping pelt right now. I went to karate for an hour and a half and had my ass kicked to China and back. It doesn't help that I had no sleep last night.

Okay so, I went up to Manch yesterday to hang with mah buuuuuuds. I met up with Kate around 6:30, we went off and got ice cream, went to the mall, went to the book store and found Kara and talked for a while. Around 10:00 I went over to Matt and Brad's place and we hung out and they showed me around the house...it was awesome! We headed for the Red Arrow for coffee and stuff and got back around midnight, when we watched A Goofy Movie. Always a good time. Matt and Brad went to bed a little after the movie ended, and I was to sleep on the couch in the living room. Tim Jones and his buddies stayed up till 4 in the FUCKING morning, and I wanted to kill everyone by the time they finally went upstairs. I'm a light sleeper, my parents can't open my door without me waking up. Needless to say I was the last person to fall asleep. At 6, after I'd finally been able to drift off, two of the people I don't know and kind of hate now came downstairs and put on the Dark Knight....in the same room as me. Fuck you guys. I woke up a few hours later to find the movie replaying...they'd fallen asleep while the movie was on. Fuuuuuuck. I was so angry. I didn't want to bother anyone because I'd never been there before and Matt hadn't slept in days...but I had an hour drive today to get home and karate tonight. I am drained and still kinda pissed. Anyway, there's my rant about people with no consideration for others. It was fun when Matt and Brad were awake though.

I need sleep. I had a sweet two hour Conan marathon because I missed last night's. Now I'm exhausted. Peace.

It's pathetic that this is what I lost one week ago...I basically redid the whole thing today. Over the next couple of days I'll finish the paints and whatever. I'm just annoyed that I lost a whole day of work, this could have been done a week ago.

My next project is a new DA journal CSS. I never want to update my DA because I hate my CSS and I don't want people coming to my page and looking at it. It's actually hindering my production time, because I don't want to post any finished pieces.

Tomorrow i have a dentist appointment and my first karate class in nearly a year. Last summer I took karate again after taking a super long break. I always get really nervous when I return to karate because I feel like I've let sensei down by not keeping up with practice. I forget all sorts of things. I think he forgives me though. In any case, I need the cardio and I miss my friends there. Also I want to finally upgrade to blue belt. For a change.

Uuuuhhhh next week I'm heading up to Manchester to hang out with my good friends Kate, Matt, and Brad! I'm really excited, it's been forever since I've seen any of them. It will be super fun.

Jesus, it's been so long since I last painted in Opencanvas it's takign me forever to do one tiny drawing. Hopefully I'll finish this mofo soon.

I've been kind of a bummer lately, so I thought I'd made a couple lists (which I do on a consistent basis). I think I'll make a list of Things That Bum Me Out and Things That Make Me Happy just so I can vent. Everyone needs that.

Things That (currently) Bum Me Out

• Being sick every other month
  
• Leaving a heartfelt message for someone and never getting a response
  
• Conan leaving Late Night
  
• Pining after old, dead friendships
  
• Not being able to do the one thing I'm alive to do; draw
  
• Dealing with crappy people at work
  
• Wearing a nametag
  
• All my friends leaving in some direction away from me, even if I'm not the reason
  
• Staring longingly at dresses I really can't afford right now
  
• The fact that it's just the beginning of June and I have to put up with this lifestyle for three whole months...I'm not looking forward to being the friendless, emotionless hermit I know I'll turn into

Well, I got the depressing stuff out of my system. Time for the happy stuff!

Things That (currently) Make Me Happy

• When my friends randomly message me to see how I'm doing and ask to hang out
  
• Conan being on earlier so I can watch him every night
  
• Reading a really good comic book about food (i.e. all of Fumi Yoshinaga's stuff :D)
  
• Playing Kingdom Hearts and actually getting somewhere
  
• Evil-Uke-Sora and NanjoKoji (they're my real life OTP <3)
  
• Cree Summer. Period.
  
• Drawing frilly dresses and superheroes
  
• Going to see movies with Amy, because we're retarded and over-analyze children's films
  
• Being able to fit working out into my daily routine
  
• Fat-free ice cream sandwiches
  
• My white gold ring
  
• Making lists

Well now I feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Making lists is something I do to make sure I don't jump off a cliff.

There was a bat in my house earlier. It scared the crap outta my mom, but all I could think was "I could keep it as a pet and name it Bruce." That's when you know you need help.

I reread all of Antique Bakery this past week or so. I love that story. It is the badassest. I reread it because I had recently watched the Korean movie, which rocked hard ass, so I figured I'd reacquaint myself with the wonderful art, characters, and plot. I loved actually looking at the pages in depth...Fumi Yoshinaga draws few to no backgrounds on pretty much every page. She draws just enough to let the reader know where everything is taking place, but doesn't explore the space nearly as much as say, Dave Gibbons does. But it's brilliant!! Almost all of her panels are heads or torsos, or even just pictures of pastries, she rarely even draws a full body figure. I long to be able to pull that off as effectively as she does. Her expressions are so subtle, but they are so easy to read...I love everything about her work. I have another manga by her called "Flower of Life," but I cannot remember what it is, so I'll be rereading that one as well. Yessss. I only have the first book though :(

Also, been carefully rereading Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking-Glass, trying to make note of themes supported by the original stories. It's going well. I actually understand Jabberwocky now, which I guess shouldn't be considered an accomplishment but that poem had me stumped forever. I've had the Cheshrie Cat of the Disney movie singing "'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves did gyre and gimble in the wabe" stuck in my head for a while, and it made no sense before today. So progress.

I don't have any new sketches at the moment...I've been working a lot and that keeps sapping all my energy. Today was my first day back at the Heights, and boy they did not disappoint. Every resident I've ever hated showed up. But that's okay, there was no one in the office to I just sat and basically did nothing. Once a week, I can do this.