j'en connais

Brrrr

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 18:10:35 GMT

Mashimaro Girl order finally shipped. Christ, I ordered at the beginning of August. These things had better be amazing. Really bummed I couldn't get my Surface Spell skirt though...maybe I can commission something similar :\ Jesus, of course it ships once school is out. Not like I needed that coat or anything.

I don't have work for the next week. I have nothing. It's pretty good, I'm worn out from school. Maybe I'll actually produce something new with all my free time. Also, Avatar. Watching it with my sister again. For the gajillionth time.

I can't decide between a "butterscotch" blonde, and a darker multi-blonde.

Hooray snow!

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 03:23:14 GMT

I finished my finals today! Well tomorrow I have to present my last one, but it's all finished.

To celebrate, I watched Millennium Actress. Last week I watched Paprika to celebrate some other kind of victory. I really love Satoshi Kon's films. I also downloaded all of Paranoia Agent since I haven't watched it yet. Perfect Blue is one of my favorite films of all time, and Tokyo Godfathers is my Christmas movie every year. Love it. Just love it. I'm not even gonna bother discussing why. They speak for themselves.

Winter break starts after my last class tomorrow! I'm excited. I can't wait to relax and do my own thing. I miss drawing for myself. I have a few things I really want to do, hopefully I can do them. And watch all the movies I have listed. Geez.

It snowed today! Like crazy. We still had school, which is unusual, but I'm thankful so I don't have to come back in. It was crazy, just last week it hit 70, this week 8 inches of snow. I hope it isn't snowing when I drive back home Friday.

Buy me shit

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 02:06:22 GMT

lol I never post twice in a day, but I figured I'd share my AWESOME AMAZON WISH LIST. I really should get back to writing my paper...

Holmes is just Batman without the bats

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:00:39 GMT

Last night I finished Sherlock Holmes in its entirety. At the end of my last book were two parodies written by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, just a bit of fun he had with his own characters. One of them stood out to me as a very comical bit of dialogue between Holmes and Watson. Guess I know what I'm gonna do this winter break as a bit of comic practice. I'm so sorry for anyone who doesn't like the gay in the stories. But it's fucking there. Read them.

Along the same vein, anyone seen the latest trailer for the Holmes movie? I am so happy with Jude Law as Watson. What a babe. I'll have to see about RDJ as Holmes...I mean I'm fond of the guy, and I love that he's funny rather than stuffy and grim, because that's what Holmes is...but he's also supposed to be freakishly tall and skinny, and no one can tell me RDJ is a skinny guy. I saw him in Iron Man. That guy is built.

Dreeeeaaaams

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 18:18:12 GMT

I had one of my favorite kinds of dream last night. Overnight it had rained and rained and when I woke up the world was flooded. The water went up to the second floor of my house, I could have jumped out my window and landed in water. I even checked the cellar and it was perfectly dry. I was so excited, I ran and grabbed a bathing suit and went to my window. The sky still had some stormy dark clouds but there was a beautiful blue early morning sky. The water was blue and clear, and the air was cool but the sun warm. I woke up before I could swim though.

I guess that means I should buy Ponyo on DVD when it comes out.

Eeeeeeee

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 03:55:58 GMT

Haha omg you guys I forgot how much I love yaoi. Probably because I'd never realized that the second half of the last chapter of my favorite series had actually been translated. All this time I thought the author had died and never finished the story. Well, Asami Tohjoh did die (which is tragic and she will be missed), but at least the story was finished. And now that I have time I'll be reading it. Yesss.

I've realized over time that my longing thoughts of romance are linked with a yaoi dry spell. I get less mopey once I have some in my system. This might cure me of my recent forlornness. Or I might go gay crazy again.

you guys you guys you guys

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 18:28:33 GMT

I finished all my illustrations for Ill IV two weeks early! I am so excited! I actually got them finished for my portfolio book :D

Let's see...the next part is Do Ya Wanna Touch Me, which was actually the last one I figured out how to finish. Then there's Satellite of Love, and finally Bitter-Sweet. Hooray! I'm so happy I could dance. But I am also tired of looking at things.

Maybe I'll have time to actually do something else. Probably not. I still have to design the album cover and print everything out. But at least the main crap is finished.

Pfft

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 23:15:44 GMT

Hey all. I finished a new self portrait, since my last one was when I was a freshman. Its in my profile. You should check it out.

I was gonna write an intelligent rant on BeautifulPeople.com, but then I figured it wasn't worth it. Stupidity isn't worth my time.

Deeeaaaaad

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 23:51:12 GMT

I'm pooped. And I've been in my pajamas all day. So far I've only gotten like a fourth done of what I wanted. Oh well. I still have time. I did manage to finish my Ride a White Swan piece. Yikes. Glad it's done. Three to go! I'm so happy two of them are all inked and flat colored.

Jumpsuits are so in

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 19:20:23 GMT

Got my re-do of the MST3K shirt from Spreadshirt.com...waaaaayyyy better on an American Apparel T. I wouldn't suggest getting shirts made by Bella. But yeah, I'm gonna fuckin' rock that thing sometime this week. I really have to get the whole show on DVD. So happy.

My adviser didn't show up for an appointment I made with her for figuring out my schedule. I'm kind of annoyed. It's next to impossible to get her to show up. I remember constantly having to wait for her at her office. What the heck is she doing all the time?! It's bad enough that they've switched everything that's required around in the concentrations, I have no idea what I need to take anymore. Hopefully I can catch her soon. And this time I am not showing up at the allotted time for juniors on registration day, I'm showing up with the seniors so I don't get fucked over again. They can suck on it. I am not having a repeat of last semester.

Went to see Mike Birbiglia on Friday with my siblings and a...friend. Sort of. Well the show was fantastic, and so were Meg and Mike. I've seen Birbigs twice now and loved him both times. Now I'm pumped for Eddie Izzard in January!

Homework time D: I'm gonna be tied up with it for a while...

Bums

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 02:47:50 GMT

Aw man, it's already past Halloween? Total bummer.

I just had the craziest weekend. I certainly drove quite a lot. Let's start with Thursday. After class, Jess, Matt, and I went to the gym, after which Jess and I headed for my home since I stupidly had part of my costume shipped there. We had dinner with my family and watched Velvet Goldmine and Flapjack. Next morning, very early, dad made us french toast and we headed out to do some shopping. First stop was Bananas; Jess got a sweet hat and I got a sweet coat. Then a party store for the final touch to Jess's costume. After some arts and crafts, we headed up to Jess's house where we carved a really stupid looking pumpkin and Andy did some homework. Finally we headed back to the dorm to get ready for the Halloween Bash!

I love that dance every year. It is such a blast. This year Kara, Jess, and I went as an Alice in Wonderland group - I was Alice, Jess the Mad Hatter, and Kara the Queen of Hearts. We were so awesome we actually won a collective second place in the costume contest! Somehow we'll have to split a $10 gift card to the store and deli three ways. Dancing was awesome, and food was good. JB was the Riddler, and that was super cool. I went straight home but didn't get to sleep till midnight, and since I was exhausted and had work at 7 the next day it was a poor combo.

Then yesterday, I worked, took a nap, and headed over to Newburyport with Kara and Jess for dinner! We ate at Oregano's, a really nice pizzeria. Looooved it. And I love Newburyport, I've never been there but I'd totally live there. It's everything I've ever dreamed of in a city. Brick-paved alleys, few cars, warm lighting, beautiful port, everything I could ever dream of. Gonna be doing my research. And it's only a half an hour away from Gloucester! Too cool.

This week will be sleeping and homework, both of which I've been severely ignoring for the past four days. I have some wicked ideas for my illustration project, and while they're not exactly what my teacher is looking for, I think it's too good an idea to pass up. I have to do some research on packaging and vinyl record sleeves. Trust me, it will be so cool.

I wonder if it will all be worth it

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 01:42:33 GMT

Baaahhh I don't know anymore. Wednesdays are such a downer, especially if they're gross and rainy.

I'm getting really tired of illustration IV. No matter what I do, it's never good enough. Honestly, I know I've met with sexism in the classroom before, from all sorts of angles, but it's really incredibly frustrating when it's over something this important to me. Apparently I'm not as good at this as several of the guys in my class, and neither is Jess. I've put all of myself into my concepts and my art, and yet it's not good enough. Apparently "this is a concept class" means "write crappy children's stories" in teacher talk. My first concept was a story about women dressed like birds who treat each other poorly. And she thought it was better than my tribute to glam rock through fashion illustration, something I actually care about. Wow, cliche boring story or awesome visual clusterfuck? Just trust me, woman. I will blow the socks off my guy friends.

It really drags you down. J. Simon did that to me last semester. I got no positive feedback from him and he couldn't even remember my name after three and a half months. It's so frustrating when you're trying your hardest to please someone else with something you love and it just gets nowhere. I want to get better at illustration more than anything, but I don't feel like I've been improving much in the last year. I have to do it all on my own, and I don't like that the classes that are being paid for aren't helping at all. I'm doing fine in digital illustration, which is weird because my entire series in ill. IV will be done digitally. I want to feel like I'm learning something! All I've gotten is assignments, no lectures or demonstrations on how to be a better illustrator. And now one of my friends is being singled out by the teacher for side jobs. I want illustration jobs. Why not me? Is he better than me?I feel like I kicked his ass these past couple of assignments, so why not me? None of the other kids are getting these jobs either. I hate it when teachers play favorites.

Sigh....just venting a little. I'm watching the original Texas Chainsaw Massacre while working on my homework. Tomorrow Jess and I are skipping the second half of class for therapeutic reasons and going to the gym. Matt bailed on me today so I just didn't go...I think it's because since I started again my eyes keep going wobbly at odd intervals. Maybe a good rest will put a stop to it. Friday is the dance, and Saturday is Newburyport with Jess and Kara! Good times. Hopefully it will all go well.

Protein shakes are good china

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 01:44:51 GMT

So I've been to the gym twice in the past week. Feeling good. Managed to get through an hour today with my buddy Matt. Tomorrow with Jess! Soon I'll look like Batman. Hopefully not soon, actually.

I really haven't done any homework for days. And I'm loving it. I'm just about to start on some small anatomy work. I slept all day Friday, went to work from 7 till 3 Saturday and Sunday, and went to the Burlington Mall on Saturday with Jess to shop. It was nonstop for a while there. I decided to stay home last night and left for school this morning. Good night sleep.

I hope to have my first of four final pieces done for illustration by the end of this week. I'll probably get around to it Wednesday night. Bah, I have the next few weeks to work on them anyway. Hopefully I can stay on task.

Man, I can't wait for this week to get rolling. It's gonna be a blast.

This is stupid

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 01:27:03 GMT

Hmm...today was just not a happy day. I don't know if it was because I wasn't dressed at all how I'd liked to have been, or if I was just in a funk, but it sucked. Don't really want a repeat of today. I hate being a 15-year-old in a 20-year-old's body.

What do I have to look forward to? Hmm...oh yeah! My Alice dress arrived! Jess and I are gonna have a mega Halloween, like we did two years ago. It'll be sleepover next Thursday, followed by movies Friday, the dance Friday night, and I'm sure we'll get working out in there somehow. I'm pretty pumped for that. Not for getting up for work the next morning.

Work is so...ick. I haven't really hated my job before. Now I know I do. I think I'm definitely transferring back to Danvers. The Gloucester store is just terrible to work at. They are so hateful of the new cashiers and baggers, and they jump at any chance to shove the "rules" down everyone's throats. Yeah, having my ponytail over my shoulder because I've been moving around is against dress code. Fuck you guys. I'm going back to busyville, where at least they don't treat newbies like shit. And I'm not new. So shut up.

Let's see...all I wanna draw is ladies. Pin ups. Lolitas. Whatever I fancy. But NOOOO I have to do homework >:( All this homework is really dragging me down. I loved how over the summer I got to draw what I wanted to draw. Maaaaan. I wanna draw sexy ladies. I'd draw sexy dudes too but they have no fashion sense and flat bodies. Boooring.

Yeah yeah I see the price

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 04:12:06 GMT

Yess! I finally caved and ordered the greatest hoodie of all time. Oh yeah, I'll be sitting pretty in that baby in no time. I have been dying for that thing since June.

As I was driving back to school tonight it started snowing. SNOWING. In the middle of fucking October. God have mercy on us.

Had a pretty good last week. Got a lot of work done. Thursday was wicked fun. I had illustration 4 till 4, had lunch with Aimee, hung out with Jess till 7, then we went to see Nathan Fox at the main building, at 9:30 I headed over to Matt and Brad's place and watched David Bowie's crotch in Labyrinth. It's days like that that make me happy. I wish they happened more often.

Oh yeah, went to see Where the Wild Things Are tonight. It was a really interesting take on the book - it was portrayed as a lot deeper than I remember it being. I don't think seeing it with my dad helped it much, he isn't one for the more whimsical films. I really loved the Wild Things though, they looked awesome.

I really want to get in shape :( Going to the doctor has a real negative impact on a fille.

Hello world!

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 02:15:56 GMT

I come bearing pictures! And I'm not posting my mesh of a vespa scooter, that process is retarded.

First some sketches! Hooray! I have one failed attempt at an illustration assignment. Here's the second part of the pirate lolita series, her name is Nor'easter. And the third part of the series, whom I have yet to name. I think I'll do these guys up in SAI, so I can get a little more used to the program.

And now some finished art! These are all class assignments, in my Ill IV class we had to think up three different stories and illustrate them, keeping in mind that we'd do four more illustrations for one of the stories. This was my first, a story where women dress like birds and act catty to one another. The second was just an illustration of an oiran, because they are so awesome. And the third is the story I'm gonna go with, I titled it Velvet Goldmine. I'm doing a series of fashion illustrations based on glam rock. They're all gonna have some references to glam rock acts - this one has a Bowie pin, a necklace resembling Ziggy Stardust's face makeup, several things pertaining to the lyrics of the song Velvet Goldmine, sunglasses like those of Marc Bolan's in the Ride a White Swan video, and a scarf inspired by the pants of Noddy Holder of Slade.

Busy week! I'm gonna sit down tonight and watch Velvet Goldmine, draw, and relax. I think I fucking deserve it. Nutty times.

Bleh

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 03:13:44 GMT

Y'know, I actually have a bunch of sketches and a few final class illustrations I could post, but I just can't get around to scanning everything. I'll probably put a few things up on Monday or Tuesday.

Busy week! On Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday I have midterms. One test, one presentation, one final illustration plus three print outs. Siiiigh. I hope I have time to hang out with friends/go to the gym/go shopping once the bulk of my midterms are over. Fortunately I'm having a good time working on my illustration and the presentation.

I downloaded SAI the other day to try it out since a) it's free and b) every digital artist and their mom is raving about it. So far from experimenting, I really love the ink pen tool. I am such crap at digitally inking it's insane. But the SAI tool is really smooth and works super well, maybe I can do more purely digital stuff. WE'LL SEE.

Did I mention I'm going to see Eddie Izzard again this January? Well I am. And I am stoked. I'm going with my good friend Lacey and we are gonna get all dolled up and ride the train in since the venue is right at the station. It's gonna be off the hook! Yes.

Now to watch Conan and go to bed so I can wake up super early for work tomorrow D:

The time has come!

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 03:57:48 GMT

I'm in a better place with myself now. I came to terms with my being promoted (which basically means I turned down the job) and I finally got access to the $250 in my new checking account. Awesome! Now to just do all that homework...

Turning down the job was difficult, but not really stupid in the end. Y'see, I've known the assistant managers at my store for almost the entire time I've worked there...which means they've been there for a while. I don't want to get tied down to that store any more than I already am. Also, I had an epiphany today - that job has nothing to do with my career path. I want to be an illustrator. Not a store manager. I'm not gonna slip that into an interview. So overall, I'll be a lowly cashier, but a happier one for it. Still not looking forward to my first day at the Gloucester store though.

I love Hercules. I could watch this show all day. As a matter of fact, I have been a lot. I wanna draw fanart so bad but the style of the show determines the look of the characters so much I don't think it would translate well into my style. And I don't really see the point of fanart if the artist is just mimicking the original style.

Tragedy!!

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 04:54:49 GMT

FFFF whyyy is the Dances if Vice four hours away in NYC?!?! October 17 is only the greatest theme for a party ever...glam rock meets Victorian dress in an Oscar Wilde tribute! Only the two greatest things to exist EVER. Apparently Velvet Goldmine influenced this one, which is just another HUGE nail in the coffin. Maybe I can manage to get there somehow. Gah, doubt it. So unfaaaaiiir D: I'm not one to whine about missing things, but DAMN. It's like I'm missing my whole life.

Let's see...went to a meeting for the new store today. I don't think I'll be working there long. I don't really know anyone there, and the really hot guy that's gonna be a supervisor can't make up for all my friends I'll be leaving behind. At this point I'm really looking forward to being back at school.

And Jesus it is difficult to get the Halloween dress I so desire. What I'm thinkign is I'll go for a cheap alternative, sell it after Halloween, and buy the real replica I want from mashimaro girl. Good times.

My dog is trying to sleep next to me but I keep waking her up. Poor Bindi.

What's not...to lava?

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 04:38:17 GMT

Having a pretty good time here at the ol' dorm. Finally stuck to an idea for my illustration IV assignment. Decided on oiran or the highest class of Japanese prostitute from the Edo period. Got into the mood by watching one of my favorite films, Sakuran. That Anna Tsuchiya is amazing. In any case I can't wait for this to be finished so I can start worrying about my third one.

Been watching Hercules the Animated Series pretty much nonstop for the past few days. I've had a set of CDs for a couple of years now that I got off of ioffer.com, but it was a sad set because it was 9 DVDs in paper cases and there were several missing episodes. Fortunately I checked back on that site last month and lo and behold, the remastered set had been released! It is indeed a glorious day. I gotta say, this is definitely one of my favorite shows of all time. I love every character (especially Herc <333). Happiness abounds.

I might be doing an Alice in Wonderland theme for Halloween this year with my friends! Just the thought of it makes me all tingly. Last year they did Peter Pan together and I was pretty jealous despite the fact that I was Harley Quinn, mostly because I've never done a group theme before. Hopefully this will work out! I love Alice. We gotta get together and discuss it, then I need to invest in my costume.

And jesus is it difficult to download Maka Maka. I need this amazing comic people!

The whole stinking world

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 00:16:37 GMT

Typing on my sister's ass of a computer. I swear to god I have to choose between my amazing bed at home and my amazing computer at school every week.

I actually have some sketches completed, but since my computer and scanner are both at school those'll have to wait. For now it's all I can do to try and think up another concept for illustration IV and finish a whole piece by next Thursday. Which I think is difficult because I'm so frigging scared of working tomorrow, and it's consuming my brain. I can only focus on my failings and thus I carve myself a deeper rut to decay in. It's not a good place to be, but hopefully I can get myself out of it soon enough. I just want money so I can buy all this crap.

I'm at such an in-between place with myself right now. I spend half of my time at work or in class, or asleep or on the road, and that's fine, occupied time spent doing something useful. I'm more fond of my friends than I have been in years, and I haven't gotten along with anyone the way I do with my buddies now. My classes are pretty average, nothing too bad to complain about, some minor frustrations but that's how it is. And I'm being promoted at work, not necessarily to a position I enjoy more, but at least they're finally recognizing me as a capable employee. And a crushing realization that I am a 20-year-old, talentless, naive nobody sinks in a bit further each and every day. My promotion means less to me than just staying as a cashier...I'm a step higher in a freaking grocery store. And no one (respectable) is gonna hire me now. And I've been happy with my art but christ that shit won't get my anywhere, I'm nowhere near where I want to be with it and I'm not at all confident in my abilities. Gotta keep working at it.

Being halfway through college already it is a real downer when I think about what I'll be doing in two years. It's sorta intimidating, and considering I'm not a particularly strong or capable person it's daunting. But I'll whine here, because this is my personal journal and I can't whine anywhere else. So take that, livejournal. Damn I need to watch velvet Goldmine for a boost.

Sweetass hat

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 05:02:54 GMT

I wish someone would turn that into an animated GIF.

Got my hat today!! <33333 It arrived at home the same day I did, I love Closet Child. How come I get things from Japan in less time than it takes to get some things from the US? gaaahhh in any case I love this hat and it's never leaving my head. I think I'll be starting a BTSSB and AATP hat collection soon.

Also got tickets to see Mike Birbiglia in Boston this November! Sweetest of deals. Love that guy. I'm getting my ticket to see Eddie Izzard soon, since they finally announced his tour date in Boston <333 I'm pretty sure my friend Lacey will be coming with me, I really hope. I want to dress nice and I wouldn't want to go by myself.

I also watched Green Lantern - First Flight last night. Not bad! I really liked it. Green Lantern was never one of my very favorites, but I do really like him, so watching his own animated movie was pretty cool. Had to watch Wonder Woman right afterwards though, I needed to see an awesome woman kicking ass.

I'll probably be sharing some info on my comic project soon. I don't want to talk to much about it until I've got some more structure in place because I tend to get hyped up on working on a project until I realize it's way too big for me. So I'm really trying to keep this one in my sights for now until I can share more about it. Wish me luck, guys.

Ahhhhh I need money, thank god I'm back to work Saturday. I can't stop buying stuff! At least I'm trying to support independent seamstresses and businesses. All that support is really expensive though.

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 03:20:31 GMT

Yussss mothafucka just bought this motherfuckin' sweetass hat from Closet Child :D However, the exchange rate between the USD and the yen is suckville right now. I'm gonna have to put off that Innocent World order I was planning D:

I'm gonna be so stylin'. Just wish I knew why I only own BTSSB for brand. :\

Hey peeps

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 02:19:30 GMT

I spent most of anatomy this week outlining my absolute must-buys for my wardrobe. Good bye, education!

I'm wearing lolita for the first time this year on Tuesday so I can be all dolled up for the Neo-Victorian club grayhour's doing. That should be an interesting day.

Also homework. I've been doing everything but it, and that everything includes a little sketching but nothing to put up here. Bums me out, but whatcha gonna do? Gotta write and study for now.

I swear to god I have to do fanart for Sherlock Holmes and the Picture of Dorian Gray, it's driving me crazy. Victorian dudes, great fashion sense, and crime? I love that shit!

I had a dream I drew an insanely good-looking Batman. He was super ripped. I was really depressed when I woke up.

Finally ordering my dream tricorn hat :3

When to the wall you find your back, a tac, a tac, and never look back!

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 22:06:39 GMT

You guys you guys, I just fell in love with this picture by Ming Doyle (_ming). I mean that's not to say I don't fall in love with all her pictures. Just this one especially. I wish I was a cute dude so I could dress up as Kon-El. His design is my favorite. Gawd people why aren't they drawn like this in the comics?!

School wore me out today. I'm glad I'm going home to relax tonight. I have a bunch of homework but that isn't really scaring me. It's all easy stuff, and since 4/5 of my classes meet once a week I have so much time to do it all. :D I think the only hurdle I have left to jump is the move to the Gloucester MB. It shouldn't be driving me crazy but it is. I guess it's because I know so many people in Danvers that I'm kind of sad to leave. At least it will be over soon and I'll be able to afford all the crazy expensive stuff I like to buy.

Someone has to watch the Thief and the Cobbler with me!