j'en connais

Pfft

2009-11-12T23:15:44Z

Hey all. I finished a new self portrait, since my last one was when I was a freshman. Its in my profile. You should check it out.

I was gonna write an intelligent rant on BeautifulPeople.com, but then I figured it wasn't worth it. Stupidity isn't worth my time.

Deeeaaaaad

2009-11-11T23:51:12Z

I'm pooped. And I've been in my pajamas all day. So far I've only gotten like a fourth done of what I wanted. Oh well. I still have time. I did manage to finish my Ride a White Swan piece. Yikes. Glad it's done. Three to go! I'm so happy two of them are all inked and flat colored.

Jumpsuits are so in

2009-11-09T19:20:23Z

Got my re-do of the MST3K shirt from Spreadshirt.com...waaaaayyyy better on an American Apparel T. I wouldn't suggest getting shirts made by Bella. But yeah, I'm gonna fuckin' rock that thing sometime this week. I really have to get the whole show on DVD. So happy.

My adviser didn't show up for an appointment I made with her for figuring out my schedule. I'm kind of annoyed. It's next to impossible to get her to show up. I remember constantly having to wait for her at her office. What the heck is she doing all the time?! It's bad enough that they've switched everything that's required around in the concentrations, I have no idea what I need to take anymore. Hopefully I can catch her soon. And this time I am not showing up at the allotted time for juniors on registration day, I'm showing up with the seniors so I don't get fucked over again. They can suck on it. I am not having a repeat of last semester.

Went to see Mike Birbiglia on Friday with my siblings and a...friend. Sort of. Well the show was fantastic, and so were Meg and Mike. I've seen Birbigs twice now and loved him both times. Now I'm pumped for Eddie Izzard in January!

Homework time D: I'm gonna be tied up with it for a while...

Bums

2009-11-02T02:47:50Z

Aw man, it's already past Halloween? Total bummer.

I just had the craziest weekend. I certainly drove quite a lot. Let's start with Thursday. After class, Jess, Matt, and I went to the gym, after which Jess and I headed for my home since I stupidly had part of my costume shipped there. We had dinner with my family and watched Velvet Goldmine and Flapjack. Next morning, very early, dad made us french toast and we headed out to do some shopping. First stop was Bananas; Jess got a sweet hat and I got a sweet coat. Then a party store for the final touch to Jess's costume. After some arts and crafts, we headed up to Jess's house where we carved a really stupid looking pumpkin and Andy did some homework. Finally we headed back to the dorm to get ready for the Halloween Bash!

I love that dance every year. It is such a blast. This year Kara, Jess, and I went as an Alice in Wonderland group - I was Alice, Jess the Mad Hatter, and Kara the Queen of Hearts. We were so awesome we actually won a collective second place in the costume contest! Somehow we'll have to split a $10 gift card to the store and deli three ways. Dancing was awesome, and food was good. JB was the Riddler, and that was super cool. I went straight home but didn't get to sleep till midnight, and since I was exhausted and had work at 7 the next day it was a poor combo.

Then yesterday, I worked, took a nap, and headed over to Newburyport with Kara and Jess for dinner! We ate at Oregano's, a really nice pizzeria. Looooved it. And I love Newburyport, I've never been there but I'd totally live there. It's everything I've ever dreamed of in a city. Brick-paved alleys, few cars, warm lighting, beautiful port, everything I could ever dream of. Gonna be doing my research. And it's only a half an hour away from Gloucester! Too cool.

This week will be sleeping and homework, both of which I've been severely ignoring for the past four days. I have some wicked ideas for my illustration project, and while they're not exactly what my teacher is looking for, I think it's too good an idea to pass up. I have to do some research on packaging and vinyl record sleeves. Trust me, it will be so cool.

I wonder if it will all be worth it

2009-10-29T01:42:33Z

Baaahhh I don't know anymore. Wednesdays are such a downer, especially if they're gross and rainy.

I'm getting really tired of illustration IV. No matter what I do, it's never good enough. Honestly, I know I've met with sexism in the classroom before, from all sorts of angles, but it's really incredibly frustrating when it's over something this important to me. Apparently I'm not as good at this as several of the guys in my class, and neither is Jess. I've put all of myself into my concepts and my art, and yet it's not good enough. Apparently "this is a concept class" means "write crappy children's stories" in teacher talk. My first concept was a story about women dressed like birds who treat each other poorly. And she thought it was better than my tribute to glam rock through fashion illustration, something I actually care about. Wow, cliche boring story or awesome visual clusterfuck? Just trust me, woman. I will blow the socks off my guy friends.

It really drags you down. J. Simon did that to me last semester. I got no positive feedback from him and he couldn't even remember my name after three and a half months. It's so frustrating when you're trying your hardest to please someone else with something you love and it just gets nowhere. I want to get better at illustration more than anything, but I don't feel like I've been improving much in the last year. I have to do it all on my own, and I don't like that the classes that are being paid for aren't helping at all. I'm doing fine in digital illustration, which is weird because my entire series in ill. IV will be done digitally. I want to feel like I'm learning something! All I've gotten is assignments, no lectures or demonstrations on how to be a better illustrator. And now one of my friends is being singled out by the teacher for side jobs. I want illustration jobs. Why not me? Is he better than me?I feel like I kicked his ass these past couple of assignments, so why not me? None of the other kids are getting these jobs either. I hate it when teachers play favorites.

Sigh....just venting a little. I'm watching the original Texas Chainsaw Massacre while working on my homework. Tomorrow Jess and I are skipping the second half of class for therapeutic reasons and going to the gym. Matt bailed on me today so I just didn't go...I think it's because since I started again my eyes keep going wobbly at odd intervals. Maybe a good rest will put a stop to it. Friday is the dance, and Saturday is Newburyport with Jess and Kara! Good times. Hopefully it will all go well.

Protein shakes are good china

2009-10-27T01:44:51Z

So I've been to the gym twice in the past week. Feeling good. Managed to get through an hour today with my buddy Matt. Tomorrow with Jess! Soon I'll look like Batman. Hopefully not soon, actually.

I really haven't done any homework for days. And I'm loving it. I'm just about to start on some small anatomy work. I slept all day Friday, went to work from 7 till 3 Saturday and Sunday, and went to the Burlington Mall on Saturday with Jess to shop. It was nonstop for a while there. I decided to stay home last night and left for school this morning. Good night sleep.

I hope to have my first of four final pieces done for illustration by the end of this week. I'll probably get around to it Wednesday night. Bah, I have the next few weeks to work on them anyway. Hopefully I can stay on task.

Man, I can't wait for this week to get rolling. It's gonna be a blast.

This is stupid

2009-10-22T01:27:03Z

Hmm...today was just not a happy day. I don't know if it was because I wasn't dressed at all how I'd liked to have been, or if I was just in a funk, but it sucked. Don't really want a repeat of today. I hate being a 15-year-old in a 20-year-old's body.

What do I have to look forward to? Hmm...oh yeah! My Alice dress arrived! Jess and I are gonna have a mega Halloween, like we did two years ago. It'll be sleepover next Thursday, followed by movies Friday, the dance Friday night, and I'm sure we'll get working out in there somehow. I'm pretty pumped for that. Not for getting up for work the next morning.

Work is so...ick. I haven't really hated my job before. Now I know I do. I think I'm definitely transferring back to Danvers. The Gloucester store is just terrible to work at. They are so hateful of the new cashiers and baggers, and they jump at any chance to shove the "rules" down everyone's throats. Yeah, having my ponytail over my shoulder because I've been moving around is against dress code. Fuck you guys. I'm going back to busyville, where at least they don't treat newbies like shit. And I'm not new. So shut up.

Let's see...all I wanna draw is ladies. Pin ups. Lolitas. Whatever I fancy. But NOOOO I have to do homework >:( All this homework is really dragging me down. I loved how over the summer I got to draw what I wanted to draw. Maaaaan. I wanna draw sexy ladies. I'd draw sexy dudes too but they have no fashion sense and flat bodies. Boooring.

Yeah yeah I see the price

2009-10-19T04:12:06Z

Yess! I finally caved and ordered the greatest hoodie of all time. Oh yeah, I'll be sitting pretty in that baby in no time. I have been dying for that thing since June.

As I was driving back to school tonight it started snowing. SNOWING. In the middle of fucking October. God have mercy on us.

Had a pretty good last week. Got a lot of work done. Thursday was wicked fun. I had illustration 4 till 4, had lunch with Aimee, hung out with Jess till 7, then we went to see Nathan Fox at the main building, at 9:30 I headed over to Matt and Brad's place and watched David Bowie's crotch in Labyrinth. It's days like that that make me happy. I wish they happened more often.

Oh yeah, went to see Where the Wild Things Are tonight. It was a really interesting take on the book - it was portrayed as a lot deeper than I remember it being. I don't think seeing it with my dad helped it much, he isn't one for the more whimsical films. I really loved the Wild Things though, they looked awesome.

I really want to get in shape :( Going to the doctor has a real negative impact on a fille.

Hello world!

2009-10-15T02:15:56Z

I come bearing pictures! And I'm not posting my mesh of a vespa scooter, that process is retarded.

First some sketches! Hooray! I have one failed attempt at an illustration assignment. Here's the second part of the pirate lolita series, her name is Nor'easter. And the third part of the series, whom I have yet to name. I think I'll do these guys up in SAI, so I can get a little more used to the program.

And now some finished art! These are all class assignments, in my Ill IV class we had to think up three different stories and illustrate them, keeping in mind that we'd do four more illustrations for one of the stories. This was my first, a story where women dress like birds and act catty to one another. The second was just an illustration of an oiran, because they are so awesome. And the third is the story I'm gonna go with, I titled it Velvet Goldmine. I'm doing a series of fashion illustrations based on glam rock. They're all gonna have some references to glam rock acts - this one has a Bowie pin, a necklace resembling Ziggy Stardust's face makeup, several things pertaining to the lyrics of the song Velvet Goldmine, sunglasses like those of Marc Bolan's in the Ride a White Swan video, and a scarf inspired by the pants of Noddy Holder of Slade.

Busy week! I'm gonna sit down tonight and watch Velvet Goldmine, draw, and relax. I think I fucking deserve it. Nutty times.

Bleh

2009-10-10T03:13:44Z

Y'know, I actually have a bunch of sketches and a few final class illustrations I could post, but I just can't get around to scanning everything. I'll probably put a few things up on Monday or Tuesday.

Busy week! On Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday I have midterms. One test, one presentation, one final illustration plus three print outs. Siiiigh. I hope I have time to hang out with friends/go to the gym/go shopping once the bulk of my midterms are over. Fortunately I'm having a good time working on my illustration and the presentation.

I downloaded SAI the other day to try it out since a) it's free and b) every digital artist and their mom is raving about it. So far from experimenting, I really love the ink pen tool. I am such crap at digitally inking it's insane. But the SAI tool is really smooth and works super well, maybe I can do more purely digital stuff. WE'LL SEE.

Did I mention I'm going to see Eddie Izzard again this January? Well I am. And I am stoked. I'm going with my good friend Lacey and we are gonna get all dolled up and ride the train in since the venue is right at the station. It's gonna be off the hook! Yes.

Now to watch Conan and go to bed so I can wake up super early for work tomorrow D:

The time has come!

2009-10-05T03:57:48Z

I'm in a better place with myself now. I came to terms with my being promoted (which basically means I turned down the job) and I finally got access to the $250 in my new checking account. Awesome! Now to just do all that homework...

Turning down the job was difficult, but not really stupid in the end. Y'see, I've known the assistant managers at my store for almost the entire time I've worked there...which means they've been there for a while. I don't want to get tied down to that store any more than I already am. Also, I had an epiphany today - that job has nothing to do with my career path. I want to be an illustrator. Not a store manager. I'm not gonna slip that into an interview. So overall, I'll be a lowly cashier, but a happier one for it. Still not looking forward to my first day at the Gloucester store though.

I love Hercules. I could watch this show all day. As a matter of fact, I have been a lot. I wanna draw fanart so bad but the style of the show determines the look of the characters so much I don't think it would translate well into my style. And I don't really see the point of fanart if the artist is just mimicking the original style.

Tragedy!!

2009-10-04T04:54:49Z

FFFF whyyy is the Dances if Vice four hours away in NYC?!?! October 17 is only the greatest theme for a party ever...glam rock meets Victorian dress in an Oscar Wilde tribute! Only the two greatest things to exist EVER. Apparently Velvet Goldmine influenced this one, which is just another HUGE nail in the coffin. Maybe I can manage to get there somehow. Gah, doubt it. So unfaaaaiiir D: I'm not one to whine about missing things, but DAMN. It's like I'm missing my whole life.

Let's see...went to a meeting for the new store today. I don't think I'll be working there long. I don't really know anyone there, and the really hot guy that's gonna be a supervisor can't make up for all my friends I'll be leaving behind. At this point I'm really looking forward to being back at school.

And Jesus it is difficult to get the Halloween dress I so desire. What I'm thinkign is I'll go for a cheap alternative, sell it after Halloween, and buy the real replica I want from mashimaro girl. Good times.

My dog is trying to sleep next to me but I keep waking her up. Poor Bindi.

What's not...to lava?

2009-09-30T04:38:17Z

Having a pretty good time here at the ol' dorm. Finally stuck to an idea for my illustration IV assignment. Decided on oiran or the highest class of Japanese prostitute from the Edo period. Got into the mood by watching one of my favorite films, Sakuran. That Anna Tsuchiya is amazing. In any case I can't wait for this to be finished so I can start worrying about my third one.

Been watching Hercules the Animated Series pretty much nonstop for the past few days. I've had a set of CDs for a couple of years now that I got off of ioffer.com, but it was a sad set because it was 9 DVDs in paper cases and there were several missing episodes. Fortunately I checked back on that site last month and lo and behold, the remastered set had been released! It is indeed a glorious day. I gotta say, this is definitely one of my favorite shows of all time. I love every character (especially Herc <333). Happiness abounds.

I might be doing an Alice in Wonderland theme for Halloween this year with my friends! Just the thought of it makes me all tingly. Last year they did Peter Pan together and I was pretty jealous despite the fact that I was Harley Quinn, mostly because I've never done a group theme before. Hopefully this will work out! I love Alice. We gotta get together and discuss it, then I need to invest in my costume.

And jesus is it difficult to download Maka Maka. I need this amazing comic people!

The whole stinking world

2009-09-26T00:16:37Z

Typing on my sister's ass of a computer. I swear to god I have to choose between my amazing bed at home and my amazing computer at school every week.

I actually have some sketches completed, but since my computer and scanner are both at school those'll have to wait. For now it's all I can do to try and think up another concept for illustration IV and finish a whole piece by next Thursday. Which I think is difficult because I'm so frigging scared of working tomorrow, and it's consuming my brain. I can only focus on my failings and thus I carve myself a deeper rut to decay in. It's not a good place to be, but hopefully I can get myself out of it soon enough. I just want money so I can buy all this crap.

I'm at such an in-between place with myself right now. I spend half of my time at work or in class, or asleep or on the road, and that's fine, occupied time spent doing something useful. I'm more fond of my friends than I have been in years, and I haven't gotten along with anyone the way I do with my buddies now. My classes are pretty average, nothing too bad to complain about, some minor frustrations but that's how it is. And I'm being promoted at work, not necessarily to a position I enjoy more, but at least they're finally recognizing me as a capable employee. And a crushing realization that I am a 20-year-old, talentless, naive nobody sinks in a bit further each and every day. My promotion means less to me than just staying as a cashier...I'm a step higher in a freaking grocery store. And no one (respectable) is gonna hire me now. And I've been happy with my art but christ that shit won't get my anywhere, I'm nowhere near where I want to be with it and I'm not at all confident in my abilities. Gotta keep working at it.

Being halfway through college already it is a real downer when I think about what I'll be doing in two years. It's sorta intimidating, and considering I'm not a particularly strong or capable person it's daunting. But I'll whine here, because this is my personal journal and I can't whine anywhere else. So take that, livejournal. Damn I need to watch velvet Goldmine for a boost.

Sweetass hat

2009-09-18T05:02:54Z

I wish someone would turn that into an animated GIF.

Got my hat today!! <33333 It arrived at home the same day I did, I love Closet Child. How come I get things from Japan in less time than it takes to get some things from the US? gaaahhh in any case I love this hat and it's never leaving my head. I think I'll be starting a BTSSB and AATP hat collection soon.

Also got tickets to see Mike Birbiglia in Boston this November! Sweetest of deals. Love that guy. I'm getting my ticket to see Eddie Izzard soon, since they finally announced his tour date in Boston <333 I'm pretty sure my friend Lacey will be coming with me, I really hope. I want to dress nice and I wouldn't want to go by myself.

I also watched Green Lantern - First Flight last night. Not bad! I really liked it. Green Lantern was never one of my very favorites, but I do really like him, so watching his own animated movie was pretty cool. Had to watch Wonder Woman right afterwards though, I needed to see an awesome woman kicking ass.

I'll probably be sharing some info on my comic project soon. I don't want to talk to much about it until I've got some more structure in place because I tend to get hyped up on working on a project until I realize it's way too big for me. So I'm really trying to keep this one in my sights for now until I can share more about it. Wish me luck, guys.

Ahhhhh I need money, thank god I'm back to work Saturday. I can't stop buying stuff! At least I'm trying to support independent seamstresses and businesses. All that support is really expensive though.

neppa @ 2009-09-13T23:18:00

2009-09-14T03:20:31Z

Yussss mothafucka just bought this motherfuckin' sweetass hat from Closet Child :D However, the exchange rate between the USD and the yen is suckville right now. I'm gonna have to put off that Innocent World order I was planning D:

I'm gonna be so stylin'. Just wish I knew why I only own BTSSB for brand. :\

Hey peeps

2009-09-14T02:19:30Z

I spent most of anatomy this week outlining my absolute must-buys for my wardrobe. Good bye, education!

I'm wearing lolita for the first time this year on Tuesday so I can be all dolled up for the Neo-Victorian club grayhour's doing. That should be an interesting day.

Also homework. I've been doing everything but it, and that everything includes a little sketching but nothing to put up here. Bums me out, but whatcha gonna do? Gotta write and study for now.

I swear to god I have to do fanart for Sherlock Holmes and the Picture of Dorian Gray, it's driving me crazy. Victorian dudes, great fashion sense, and crime? I love that shit!

I had a dream I drew an insanely good-looking Batman. He was super ripped. I was really depressed when I woke up.

Finally ordering my dream tricorn hat :3

When to the wall you find your back, a tac, a tac, and never look back!

2009-09-10T22:06:39Z

You guys you guys, I just fell in love with this picture by Ming Doyle (_ming). I mean that's not to say I don't fall in love with all her pictures. Just this one especially. I wish I was a cute dude so I could dress up as Kon-El. His design is my favorite. Gawd people why aren't they drawn like this in the comics?!

School wore me out today. I'm glad I'm going home to relax tonight. I have a bunch of homework but that isn't really scaring me. It's all easy stuff, and since 4/5 of my classes meet once a week I have so much time to do it all. :D I think the only hurdle I have left to jump is the move to the Gloucester MB. It shouldn't be driving me crazy but it is. I guess it's because I know so many people in Danvers that I'm kind of sad to leave. At least it will be over soon and I'll be able to afford all the crazy expensive stuff I like to buy.

Someone has to watch the Thief and the Cobbler with me!

Maaaaaawwwww

2009-09-09T01:44:43Z

Oh hey guys. Did I ever mention how I thought that whole updating thing was overrated?

It's been a busy week back at school. But classes haven't been busy at all. Weird. I only go to class 21 hours a week, which is awesome. But I have managed to screw up a lot of stuff in a very short amount of time. Parking my car has been a stupid experience, since I switched cars and my new one didn't have the parking pass for the street. Gay. But that's all taken care of. I did leave my key card to get into my dorm at home yesterday, but my parents are amazing and brought it here for me. I also left my student ID down at the Y. Also I keep forgetting my flash drive. Whatever. Hopefully this whole crazy experience will be behind me soon.

In any case, I've got a few meager sketches to accommodate my laziness for the past week. First, here's the first part of a three-part series I wanna work on. I want to do more pirate lolitas, since it's one of my favorite styles. This lady's name is Red Tide, which is awesome but also makes me think of menstruating. I'm working on Nor'easter, but a third name still escapes me. Anyone have any sweet nautical names?

Now for some nerdery. Batman Beyond sketches! I don't draw this series enough. If I could draw one DC Comics title it would be Batman Beyond. I love everything about that show. Best ever. And a picture of Querl getting flustered with Supergirl. Or as flustered as a twelfth level intelligence can be. I'll finish this soon, but I think I wanna change Supergirl's face.

I'll cut this short before I ramble any longer. Ciao~

I've never plucked a rooster and I'm not too good at ping-pong

2009-09-01T05:00:47Z

So I had a good cry a little bit ago. I needed it. I was just so bummed about leaving my home and my bed and my family and my dog and Gloucester. Sure there's tons of stuff that drives me crazy, and sure I'm be back there in three days for a long weekend, and sure I've gone through this twice before, but I was still down. So I cried, and I feel better. I'm actually kind of looking forward to tomorrow. Still kinda bummed I had to miss Conan, but at least I can watch him on Hulu.

I brought so much less stuff this year. I still have a good amount of clothing I'd like to bring, plus my Black Ram painting to hang on my wall, but my room is nice and simple this year. It's pretty comfortable. I've already seen Kate, we went out grocery shopping with her (current) boyfriend Andy. I like Andy, I hope they don't end up in the drama well Kate always finds herself in with boyfriends.

I have Women's Studies and History of Photography tomorrow. Both sound interesting, but both are also liberal arts classes, which to me translates to drawing time. I'll probably post some sketches tomorrow, since tonight I am wiped from the moving and crying and I just wanna lie down and read some Sherlock Holmes.

That's one big metaphor

2009-08-28T05:53:16Z

So guys, I'm writing. Or I was before I opened up this window to type this entry. Anyway, I haven't been this inspired by my own ideas in a long time.

I have a hard time writing decent stories. I don't want my plots or characters to fall flat, but I don't have the ability to work backwards from events to reasons. I look at writing stories as smoothing the edges of a rough stone. I start out with this massive boulder, really vast and vague and not having anything resembling class about it. And I start chipping away at it, but the work is really tiring and I don't see any progress as I move along. There are these big chunks that won't budge, no matter how hard I toil away at them. Usually I just give up and hide the boulder away for years and come back to look at it and laugh at how sad my progress was. But very rarely, those big chunks of boulder fall away a bit more easily, and it gives me the heart to move on. And soon I'm heartily chipping away, enjoying how the bits of rock just crumble away. I begin to hope that I can get out my polishing tools to make a smooth, compact, beautiful stone that I can show off and declare, "this is my smooth stone, I worked forever at this, and I really hope you like it."

Christ, no wonder I don't write very often. But the point of that long drawn out metaphor was that writing for me is difficult. I read...a lot. And as much as that reading helps me, it hinders my self-esteem, making me believe I will never in a million years be able to like my own work as much as I like the work of my heroes. So when I do finally find that my rock is chipping away steadily, it excites me and helps me out of my rut. I don't often find that I can explain my story ideas without blushing at my own silliness, but I think I can actually start being proud of this one.

I find that a large boulder that I started on five years ago has finally started losing fragments. And it's so great to know that I can indeed flesh these characters out, and create a world in which their problems are real and their lives are able to relate to. And it is so much fun.

I hope that I can begin to share these ideas very soon. Of course I had a lot of help - from a man who lived over a hundred years ago. But he gave me a boost to begin writing, and hopefully I'll use that boost in the future to start from scratch and finish more stones than I could have possibly hoped all on my own. I'll work on my more original ideas when I get this test down, and thankfully it's moving smoothly for now. I know I'll run into more hindrances, more chunks of rock that refuse to budge, but I'll be there with a jackhammer when the time comes.

I know what I'll be doing for the next couple of years. :)

Crap in a bucket

2009-08-28T00:06:47Z

Ugh, guys, I so don't want to be packing for school yet D:

So this past couple of weeks on Menage a 3 was pretty awesome, three out of four guest comics were done by some of my favorite webcomic artists. I adore Jess Fink, author and artist of Chester 5000 XYV and also on LJ as finkenstein. Trudy Cooper also, the artist of Platinum Grit (and I suspect another of my absolute favorites, but as I assume the creators of that comic don't have their names on the site I'll respect that and won't name names), her style is so fluid and beautiful. And as always Eisu, of another favorite, No Pink Ponies! Man, could those guest comics get any better?! The only way it could have been better is if Gisele did a guest comic of her own comic.

I can't buy anything else until I go back to school. Nope. I gotta stop spending for a couple of weeks, especially because my income will be sparse for a little. I have my eye on a camera though, so hopefully I'll be able to upload images of actuality eventually. And the moment that Batgirl hoodie is listed on etsy again, BAM! It's all mine.

Maybe I should draw instead of babbling incoherently.

What's true about art is true about life!

2009-08-26T23:26:27Z

Hey peeps. My vacation started today and ends Monday. Four months of not vacation and five days of summer. I think I can live with that, work wasn't so bad. I'll be working weekends to fund my expensive hobbies, so at least I don't have to worry about money. I can't wait to see my friends in NH, that's been the only downside of this summer...I've been all alone for months :(

I'm desperately trying to decide between a pair of BTSSB wood-sole platform red shoes and a replica of the AP crown shoes. It's one or the other. The BABY shoes are so tempting...but they're $180 and I'd be terrified of harming them. The AP-style ones I've had my eye on for a long time, and they'd be around $50, so clearly more suited to my budget. Guuuhhhh I don't know. In the end I'll probably go for the crown shoes, because as much as I love BABY's shoes I can't justify wearing them on the streets of Manchester. They'd never be worn.

You guys I have so been drawing I swear. Been working on a small series of drawings of lolita pirates. I'm sorry, I love pirate lolita. All three pirates will have natural ocean phenomena-related names. I've got a girl in red for Red Tide, a girl in blue for Nor'Easter, but I have no idea what I should name a third one. Also I'm working on a new (sort of) story that I actually started writing when I was 14. I really liked the idea and I'm starting to hone it, so I'd expect some concepts if I were you. Also I want to keep going with the Peter Pan lolita series.

Guuuuhhhh school, why do you have to suck up so much time/energy/money?! My life was so cushy just going to work every day, two paychecks a week, doing whatever in the evenings...none of this homework nonsense.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

2009-08-22T07:48:02Z

Well I finally made it through my flist. Didn't take as long as I thought it would.

I'm a little worried about school. It's consuming my mind. Hard to believe I've been out for four months. I wish I had more time off. I don't hate working, because I like money. And it makes me feel like I'm doing something worthwhile instead of sitting on my ass all day. Sure I feel like I can do so much more with my time, but jobs are scarce now and I'm lucky to have one that will give me so many hours.

I've been slacking on my health routine this week. It's something to do with the birthday/back to school/period/insane heat thing. Just a bad combo. I'll try to get back on track tomorrow, but my Karamel Sutra ice cream and red velvet cheesecake aren't helping. They're so good though D: But augh it is so damn hot, I can't bring myself to do my usual .6 miles in the morning. I have until 4 free tomorrow though. Mom even got me a nice new set of dumbbells for my birthday too :D I just can't wait until I can go to the Y where it's air conditioned. So that might be helping my not-so-peppy attitude this week.

People have been really nice at work, though. I keep getting complimented on my eyes/hair/personality (even though it's all an act and I'm usually burning with hate). That boosts my self-esteem like never before :)

Shit it's late. I shouldn't be up so late whining.

Ziggy really sang, screwed up eyes and screwed down hairdo

2009-08-22T04:26:30Z

Just got Ziggy back today! Mr. Stardust was in the shop for a little boost, I needed him to go faster. it was a birthday present from my parents <3 So now he's running like a beast. I love my computer!

Went shopping with mom and Meg on Wednesday. Got tons of great stuff, including the best-fitting pair of pants I've ever tried on. Also ordered my shark shirt from Delia*s. I got a ton of stuff from Wet Seal online tonight too, so my back to school wardrobe should be fab.

Thursday Meg and I got our hair done, I'm getting rid of my layers and going for the more Silk Spectre look. Then dad took us to grab the Lone Wolf, as it's been in the shop getting the air conditioning looked at (that should take another week to fix D: ). On the way we stopped by my dad's friend's house to look at a Volvo station wagon he's selling. 2001, "pewter," leather interior. I make fun of station wagons though, they look so stupid. And I love my Volvo! I don't know why they're so gung-ho about making me stop driving my car. It's stressing me out. I like my car. I don't care if it's 1995 and has almost 200,000 miles on it. It's never failed me in a serious way. Sure, my dad's Toyota is nice, but it's no Lone Wolf. I'm being so selfish and whining because I don't want the station wagon, even though it's more updated than my car. My parents are amazing and do so much for me, I can drive whatever they want me to drive. I just figured keepinh my oldass car would be less of a hassle. Mom's scared of me dying on the way to school, though. It's just bothering me.

Oh yeah, after all that Meg and I saw Ponyo. Holy shit! It's so adorable! Everyone should see it. It's so sweet and snuggly warm and it's Miyazaki just going "hey I love animating water, let's make a movie all about water." I want to watch the rest of his movies now :D Then we got cheesecake for ourselves and dad, since his birthday is tomorrow. Oh crap I have to make him a card and wrap his present!